WHEN IT’S TIME TO END A ONCE CREATIVE PURSUIT
Anytime I sit down to type something that’s not a review or TV news, it feels a little more personal and I tend to get in my head. For anyone who writes, this isn’t a good place to be. Still, this is where I’m at during this late night writing session; while writing trivial new TV schedules, I realize that I also need to write this. “This” being a post where I expand on the new video I posted today which is to announce I’m no longer, for the foreseeable future, making book videos.
Anyone who has hung out in this space for the past 10+ years will know that my creative direction, mind or “look” has changed. Whether it’s for the good or not is tough to gauge since I’m the creator and not the consumer, but it feels mostly good. I’m always here for change and growth. However, after being in this space for close to eleven years and making videos for five of them, I am again at a kind of crossroads.
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WHEN IT'S TIME TO END A ONCE CREATIVE PURSUIT #CREATIVE #CREATIVITY #BOOKTUBE #BOOKWORM #BOOKISH #BOOKVIDEO #BOOKTWITTER Share on XA few years ago I made the decision to change the amount of videos I put out. That was a good change because it’s less pressure to find new ideas and let off the “need” to continuously film. For me, that was really good. Then a year ago I moved where I published videos to a platform called Rumble and again, this was good. I was more comfortable about publishing videos there and felt more confident too. However, a year later I’m again “stuck” and looking for change. This time, that change is to stop creating videos.
In the video, I do a poor job of explaining the “why” of this so I did want to write a companion to today’s video sharing a bit more. For me, creating has to have purpose. I love creating and it’s something I want to turn into more than just a hobby. Creating is part of who I am. Through the years, I’ve given up more than one creative pursuit because it didn’t have purpose. It served no reason and while enjoyment is a BIG part of the process, given that I also want this to be more than fun, I no longer see purpose in videos.
In the five years of making videos, I rarely, if ever, would see growth. This means there’s no reason, enjoyment or need for my videos. This is fine. But it also means that my creative pursuit and time in making them doesn’t have enough “reason” for their survival. Before we move on, I do want to make one thing very clear. Every single person who watched a video or left an encouraging comment, I’m SO grateful for. This is important and I honestly wish I was the person who watched TONS of book videos and cheered people on. I want to take the time to do that. I want to find the bookish people who share more of my beliefs.
Given what I’m looking for, and the things I’d love to change, continuing to make videos doesn’t make sense. I’ve recognized that in the five years I’ve made videos, it’s not unreasonable to see or want to see some growth. When I don’t, it’s fair to recognize that I don’t have the “it factor” it takes to make a video pop. This is okay and I’m perfectly fine with it. Means I know what doesn’t work and in that way, this is helpful.
Making these videos has still been good. It’s been fun, challenging, and nerve-wrecking, but most of all, I loved the experience. That is always, along with creating something fun, been the goal. To meet people who enjoy books and to chat about fun things like our favorite books or favorite characters. I think some of us did that through the years. If you have a channel and are making it work, I applaud you! This is awesome and I love seeing people succeed in these creative outlets – especially if it’s something you love!
To everyone who watched, liked, or left a kind comment on any of the videos, thank you. Sincerely I appreciate this and I hope, whatever adventure you’re on, it’s one you love and is inspiring all kinds of good living.
Thanks for being a part of my creative story.
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